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Definitely something wrong.
>10glasses of water
>5trips to the toilet
>normal melancholy
Posted at 04:34 pm by fayeth
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One of those days when you blog and blog and it just doesn't seem enough; just check out the time between my posts for today.
One of the reasons for this is because I'm alone in my office right now. And I've been reading Tetanus (author of previously mentioned A tiny blip in the continuum), and it strikes me that I've never thought a man could write a blog that would speak so beautifully - to me at least.
There's something about the way he writes that touches me - maybe just the way he phrases things, but I think...I think it's to do with the way he thinks. maybe it's just the way time seems to slow down when I imagine what he's describing.
One of his entries is about a conversation he had with OneLittleTwit, where she gave him a poem, and described how he seemed to her. I don't know about how or who he is offline, but the poem was a perfect description of who he is on his blog.
It's just one of them days, when I'm particularly emo for no reason. Maybe it's to do with my very full bladder (I've had 6 huge glasses of water since i started work 4hours ago. I'm well on my way to fulfilling my 8 glass requirement), maybe it's to do with the period. I don't know.
"I don't know" seems to have become the driving motto in my life recently. I have to stop questioning like this - questions without answers.
Posted at 01:45 pm by fayeth
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And then there was this... And then right after that super-emo-thinking entry, I link to this. sigh.
Something from A tiny blip in the continuum:
The Company
It was a humbling experience. And it was at that moment I realized that all my life I have been surrounded by people who gave me opportunities freely.
Indeed. The moment you realise that life has been one un-bargained opportunity after another, you appreciate how much you have, and stop wondering about what you haven't.
And you think, "So this is what it feels like to have realisation dawn on you".
Have a good day. It's a good day out there =)
Posted at 01:12 pm by fayeth
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You ask me if I love you, but that's not the question. Everyone should've realised that posting anything on the web is not going to be "your" secret anymore - Google is a very powerful search engine. Even blogging about everyday mundane things can lead someone to suss you out on the web, even if the person merely knows the barebones of your life.
Which leads me to think - what would possess a person to write his innermost thoughts about another person (whether a person he likes or detests), and post it on the world-wide-web.
The puzzlement is further deepened when you realise he has allowed few people to link him, and one of those few is the person he's written much about.
Is it fair to say someone who does that is crazy? Or has been pushed beyond numb?
I know I can never blog that thoughts I associate most congruently with a person when I am talking about the person. Everything here is crafted, and in that sense, inaccurate. Just about everything you read here is a lie, especially if it speaks about a particular someone. I write in circles so few know who I'm talking about, but do not rejoice even if you know who I'm talking about and what I'm talking about, because I'm not telling you the whole truth.
Why do I not allow many people to link me?
Because I am afraid of who will find what out.
I am afraid of the unknown.
I do not know who will tread upon this.
As you can see, I suffer from slight paranoia (Paranoia is good. Taiwan is alive because of extreme paranoia. I'll send you the article if you want to read about it =p)
I write in circles, I write in code sometimes, and I don't like being linked.
How many layers of us await unravelling to our closest friends?
Everyone has so many onion layers, and everytime someone manages to peel a layer off, we don't know if this will be the one to make them cry or not.
On a completely unrelated note, it's frightening how little I know of the people around me.
You, him and her. I don't know how much of you, you want to reveal to me, because just like I have my dark and/or deep secrets, so do you. But if you're willing to tell, I'm mostly willing to know (unless this involves *cough*awoman/manhavingsexualfantasiesaboutyou*cough*)
And now I know why working adults slowly lose friends. It's hard to keep track of who you've kept in touch with and who you haven't, when everyday you're zonked out after work and all you wanna do when you go home or during the weekend is veg out.
Posted at 12:26 pm by fayeth
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Posted at 03:51 pm by fayeth
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[edit] Warning: Super emo-entry ahead. Don't bother if you're tired of self-reflections. I haven't written something like this in a long time, and it's a strange feeling to do so again. So yes, if you want to read, go ahead, but don't criticise my view of myself. Leave that to me. Read and don't criticise unless you're objectively sure it's constructive. If not, just shut up and go to www.yahoo.com. [/edit]
from here:
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
I can't say much about the last one ("Who is your true self"), but the rest are a true reflection of who I am at this point in time.
(Your view on yourself) is just a description of Libra, my star and my main characteristic. Mostly a good thing to do - listening to both sides - but not everyone sees the "merits" of this, and sometimes it strains relations more than it helps.
(The type of boyfriend you are looking for) isn't so much who I'm looking for, but who I would be if I found someone I was looking for. I'm no longer looking because when you're so fixated on finding something, another better thing may be in front of you but you may never see it. Same applies for shopping.
(Your readiness to commit to a relationship) is true as well. I've always said, and I still maintain, that I don't ask for much in a guy - likes me, exercises patience, is not butt-ugly hideous, treats people well generally, has chemistry with me. What's so hard about that? Finding him. I don't have a social life outside of my girl friends. Besides, men like that are all taken. So if any of you know anyone like that who doesn't mind a fat girl, I'm ready to go on blind dates. Thank you.
(The seriousness of your love) is my Achilles Heel. I flirt with guys sometimes, for a very simple reason - guys I flirt with are people I see potential in, and if it's not reciprocated then at least I can put it down to mere flirting, nothing serious. I'm just testing the waters. And the ripples so far haven't been reflected back to me.
(Your views on education) is right through and through. I value that above many things in my life, but I don't believe learning is restricted to the classroom. I'm learning as much as I can in this internship, because I've been given the chance to. Everything is a learning opportunity, be it for character-building, street-survival, or pure knowledge. Everything.
(The right job for you) - it's true - I want to be in everything. My fingers in every pie, my toes in every body of water. But I understand there needs to be some concentration and direction before anything can be achieved. I have pretty much set my path for the coming one-year period. Whether or not it is the right one for me, I don't care. Even if it isn't, I'll make it right. I will. That's how it works in my life. I will.
(How do you view success) reminds me of what I told my boss. He was telling me of how even without an engineering background, I shouldn't let it be a barrier to any future developments I might have with his company, because many of his staff do not have an engineering background. I told him, "Even if you'd told me otherwise, I'd never have let it be a barrier." You can do it, if only you try.
(What are you most afraid of) reminds me of why I'm constantly criticising myself. Also can be seen in cross reference to love-life situation, where constant failure has convinced me that there's a severe flaw somewhere in who I am on the outside, putting me at a big disadvantage when it comes to dating. Then again, it could be in, or out. But in general, people's opinion of me matters - too much sometimes. It's something I have to change, and until I'm able to change, I can't honestly say I've come into my own.
(Who is your true self) - I leave that for you to judge yourself. I can neither confirm nor deny.
Posted at 10:36 pm by fayeth
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I LOVE THE NEW WASABI CRAB BAGUETTE.
If you love Wasabi, go get it.
It tastes yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I foresee this being a staple. It's only $2.95 - much cheaper than porridge around here
Posted at 05:15 pm by fayeth
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Conversations u never wanted to know...
I'm truncating your nickname to squirrel to protect ur identity =p
faith @ work. says:
i'm not your friend. I'm not a nut.
squirrel says:
You are just a bolt then with a screw loose
faith @ work. says:
just so long as u dun say i screw around =x
squirrel says:
You're just looking for the screw of the right size
faith @ work. says:
actually, size dun matter right now
squirrel says:
just the right drill to come with it?
faith @ work. says:
ah..use screwdriver........no strong enuf rite?
squirrel says:
Duh... not powerful enough
Posted at 10:56 am by fayeth
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是否生命里出现的每一个人都会留下一丝痕迹.
怎么他的阴影我到今天还感觉得到?
Posted at 11:21 pm by fayeth
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Irritant calls to Singtel I called 1606 (Billing Enquiry for Business)
* Please enter your Bill Account number
* Press 1 for Broadband Bill Enquiries
*1*
*cursory greetings* "Eh, Miss, are you calling about your personal mobile number?"
"No"
"Oh, then it's about?"
"I pressed 1 for Broadband Bill Enquiries"
"Oh, can I have your Bill Account Number please?"
"xxxxxxxx" *thinking: didn't I already input this??"
"Ok miss, let me connect you to the billing dept"
"........ok"
*cursory greetings all over again* "How can I help you?"
"I'd like to find out what my bill will be for the month of June"
*keyboard tapping noise* "Sorry, your bill isn't out yet"
"Yes, but would it be possible to find out what the amount will be?"
"Ok, let me try *taptaptapping noise* Your bill isn't out yet, so I don't know what the amount is"
"Yes, I know. I'm asking if you can go find out from somewhere other than the bill"
"Oh ok, I'll go check.....*4 years later* Ok it'll be $6xx"
"HUH? So much?? We didn't apply for unlimited broadband just to have to pay so much a month"
"oh wait wait, it's so high because the previous bill was for April + May + one-time charges"
"so I confirm is $yyy ah?"
"Yes, it is"
"ok thanks byebye"
You see, the thing is, I was putting on a show. I knew all that info. I was just trying to find out cos my boss asked me to. So basically I was ji-siaoing that person. lol. quite useless also la...but tried her best liao. I think.
Posted at 04:15 pm by fayeth
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